My Dearest Lost,

You now truly embody your name. You are lost to me, possibly forever. No hope of redemption. I'll let this raging infection of love for you within me sleep. All I ever wanted from you was love. That's all I ever took. I gave you the love I had at the time, but you'll have to forgive my preoccupation. Maybe you ought to have taken that into account before diving off the cliff with me. I can provide what you wanted then, now. I merely need a chance.

You took my heart, my love, my sanity for a while. I would appreciate the first two back. The remaining wound cannot heal until those are back in my possession. I implore you to acquiesce to my simple request.

Tell me, where is the flaw? What severed you so completely from me? What sent you careening from me into her arms? You flipped my world upside down and left. Abandonment is your greatest sin. No...not the abandonment, your repeated resurgence and abandonment is worse. Never, never mistake yourself for a good person. Good people do not do things such as this. You're not a horrible person, but you are a far cry from being a good one.

For now, the virus you injected into me rests. I will wait, as I have always done. I wait while you chase after hopeless and not so hopeless crushes. I wait as you enjoy the flight you've embarked upon. I'll sit on the runway until you're ready to take me away. Please, don't be long. I may be swept up before you land. Whether it be another plane or a dreadful storm, I'll do my best to stand here for you.